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What's happening to meKeeping on hiding,
all of the lies.
Trying and fighting,
all of the cries.

covering the scars,
hiding the cuts.
Now only the stars,
know I am nuts.

Someone out there,
that can see,
what's happening to me.
Something for me,
I can do,
to keep it cool.
you'll think I'm a fool.

Another mistake,
know what I'll do.
Piece of skin will break,
but not cause of you.

Don't want attendion,
that's why I hide.
It's an addiction,
a constant fight.

Someone out there,
that can see,
what's happening to me.
Something for me,
I can do,
to keep it cool.
you'll think I'm a fool.

Don't want to tell,
want someone to know.
what's in th

WallsI'm fine,
I lied,
can't you see it in my eyes.

Won't cave,
not safe,
I'm really not that brave.

Hold everything in,
Bleed it all out.
won't let anybody in,
I'm covered by a cloud.
I know I've become undone,
Can I ever overcome?

I cry,
I lie,
No one ever asks me why.

In fear,
too near,
take a step away from here.

Hold everything in,
Bleed it all out.
won't let anybody in,
I'm covered by a cloud.
I know I've become undone,
Can I ever overcome?

Don't get to close to me,
My walls are up too high.
I'll never let you in,
So please don't even try,
you'll only make me cry,
and searching for the knife.

Hold everything in,

My maskDeepest cut so far,
drawn another scar.

My sister sits downstairs,
I wonder if she cares.

Keep quiet to hold the lie,
to hold it all inside.
let it come out in red.
I won't tell if you won't ask,
I'll keep wearing my mask.

Laugh and play along,
I know I'm doing wrong.

Talking with my friends,
they'd never understand.

Keep quiet to hold the lie,
to hold it all inside.
let it come out in red.
I won't tell if you won't ask,
I'll keep wearing my mask.

Falling to the floor,
make it go deeper.
I cut because I hate myself,
I hate because I cut.

Keep quiet to hold the lie,
to hold it all inside.
let it come out in red.
I won'

VulnerableI am alone in my closet
between cardboard boxes
full of my belongings
I am packed away between them
hoping to disappear from the
notice of the residents just
like the boxes and furniture
I am not happy,
content,
sated,
or even smiling
I am empty
like the bucket with
many holes in the bottom
I am sad?
No, not sad, but something like it
tired?
sick?
depressed? maybe
a little of each? possibly
I feel, yet I don't feel
Numb?
Sensitive?
Both? maybe
I don't know my purpose,
just that there is one
I am a shell of a human being
a dying soul
a crying heart
a braking mind
a ghost of a shadow
and a shadow of the wind
I am nothing, yet something
a paradox?
an oxymoron?
I don't know
I am a creature without nurture
not knowing true familial love
only suffering under the
contemptuous gazes of my
"family"
I am a scapegoat
an excuse for abuse
a peasant to cast aside
encouragement? I don't really get it
I am sure of only one thing
sure that I am human
that I have feelings
that I have created and destroy

Don't Leave Me Here All AloneDon't Leave Me Here All Alone
I am weary and my heart aches
Every time I remember you are not here my heart breaks
My footsteps grow tired and weak
My ears strain to hear your voice but for reasons I can't understand you refuse to speak
My back stoops and strains under the weight of your absence
Any other man would have given up on you long ago but it seems I have no sense
I have only my love to guide me
Everything I do is for you so why can't you see
That God made me just for you
and your silence makes my heart bleed dark blue
Tears stream from my face
I'm so alone, and in such a dark place
Lord please light a candle to guide my way
Help me find someone who will never leave my side and always stay
You know who my heart yearns for
My love for her grows deeper daily and forever more
But if it will never be returned then this emptiness in my heart will only grow
Woman, I love you dearly, don't you know?
If my love means anything to you at all
Then let me know before I fall
If what we had

Beauty WithinShe is a vision
In a cracked glass mirage
She sees lines
too much contemplation
Tattered skin
Like taffy
Blue lips
She forgets to breathe
She is a distortion
A sight seen from the other side
It tells a story
She is resigned
To her broken reflection
Accepts that it is truth
But she is more than lines, cracks, and blue lips
She slips
Her hand through the surface
It comes back bloody
She becomes real
A being
Struggling to be human
To look beyond the surface
Into honesty and courage
She looks away
And sees herself from the inside

I Need You You're My Other HalfI Need You, You're My Other Half

You are the other half of my puzzle,

the key to my lock,

keeper of the door to my heart,

your sun to my moon,

you are the stars that light my way at night.

You are my lighthouse on the shore,

my albatross to guide my way at sea,

my homing pigeon with messages of hope,

my faithful falcon with steadfast piercing eyes,

my trusty steed,

You are the blood coursing through my veins,

and the tears that melt their way down my face.

You are my celestial pair, my avatar, my glowing archon, my angel of light.

You are my beacon, my hope, the test of my faith and courage, and the wellspring of love within me.

RightI'm easily blown away,
by a single word you say.
I keep my dreams inside,
with all the other things I hide.

In my dreams I can escape,
All the evil things, my faith.
Don't need to recover,
Myself, I can just discover.

I don't know who I am
I want to hide.
But walk in the night,
And hope it'll all turn out right.

Can you tell what's going on,
how abstract I have become.
No longer who I was,
At times a hopeless cause.

Don't know where I do belong,
feels like every time I'm wrong.
I don't want to stay,
I just want to run away.

I don't know who I am
I want to hide.
But walk in the night,
And hope it'll all turn out right.

IdiotIdiot

I've lost myself because of you
I've killed myself because of you
I've done bad thing because of you
And now you're gone and it's all because of you

You don't have any soul
You don't have any heart
Inside of you is a complete dark

I could lost myself looking in to your eyes
You could do anything to me,
I didn't see your empty and stupid lies

I've lost my friends I knew I did
It was the hardest thing to do
But I guess I realize we need to split

Idiot that's my second name
I believed to you and you used me
You put me in your fucking game

How much I suffered but I never leave
You hurt me like you always did
You nev

How Much You Are Worth To MeHow Much You Are Worth To Me
You are worth more than
All the gold bars in Fort Knox.
A dragon's hoard of rubies and emeralds.
A sunken treasure chest full of gold dubloons.
A thousand barrels of spiced rum.
All the honey harvested from bees during summer.
Many casks of red and white wine.
The finest white silk.
Fragrant honeysuckle in bloom.
Finely crafted ivory.
Many luxurious furs.
Ropes of pearls 10 miles long.
Glittering piles of perfectly cut diamonds.
Swimming pools of cash.
All of Las Vegas's casinos put together
and their night clubs
and their strip joints
and their hotels too.
All their show girls put together, in a kick line at once.
A trip to the moon, or Mars, or anywhere else in the universe.
A king's treasure vault overflowing with sapphires.
Ancient jade statues from China.
Platinum records.
Bill Gates's empire.
Control of a country.
Fine spices filling the hold of a cargo ship.
A millionaire's yacht.
Carribean islands with beautiful blue water.
Schools of exotic

white blank pageThe problem.

Sometimes, I have to rinse my mouth out because of that. I still have their taste on my tongue. Hers and his and yours.

(Especially yours.)

I can't get rid of this and start scratching my tongue with the sharpest words I can find.

Piano Strings. Thorns. Glass. Edges. Fear. Grasp. Coldness. Heart ache. Claws. Saturn. Lemons. Tango Argentino. Summer Camp. Lips. Beer. Razors.

But now the taste is a composition of other peoples' souls and an aeruginous copper coin.

Like tea brewed with sewerage and withered moments. That and 300 grams full of blood.

I try to fight fire with petrol and end up in an uncomfortable faint. Deep in

Desert Sand!Desert dunes are rolling
Constantly changing shape
Sharp and soft images emerge
Sand an alien landscape.

Buried city revealed
Antiquity in ancient glory
Seen quite clear, not concealed
Pharaonic it tells a story.

Apparition, king walks tall
Surveying land of sand
Came from city buried deep
Subjects immobile, eternal sleep.

Drawn to oasis water of life
Poignant vision for ghostly eye
This place remembered so very well
Crowded memories, teardrop fell.

Night-time stars, shady trees
Belong to life once lived
Ghostly images beset his eye
Love is craved, it did not die.

Oasis calls when moon is high
Emotional pain beyond belief

Vampire Vow!Silent echoes cloud mind
Memories of life unkind
Rootless nomad lonely strives
Nothing easy, not quite alive.

In reality there is no home
Quasi-existence walk alone
Endless longing guiding light
Remember well wrong from right.

Hope never abandoned him
Permeates midnight life
Love can only take its place...
...Inconceivable, he will not bite.

2012 Delice1941
10th August2012

If Love Would Leave a LegacyYour lovely crystalline bones,
wrapped tight inside chilled casing,
laying strewn against old cherry wood
with company of lover's notes upon your lower lip;
a last caress of parchment as we bury you in earth.

Goodbye my love, Goodbye,
words that refuse to leave lips chapped and clamped in mourning,
as silent and white as knuckles curled in trembling fists.
Reddest rivers slink sultrily down tight airways, filled with aching hunger,
and sliding alongside sores of salivated lies,
where I swallowed all my silent sobs in concurrence with
these barbed and yearning sentiments.
It was nowhere near enough.

Regret shall rid unsightly

A Single WingI have scars
from wounds
I've never had

And seek
to fill holes
that don't exist

They say that
I am whole
but my other half
still cries

How come I miss what
I've never had

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Do you judge me?

by ~dreamersecho, Sep 4, 2012, 12:53:27 PM
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Do you know me?
Do you actually look beyond my face?
Do you try to know the person,
Behind which clothes I wear?
Beyond the badges on my jacket?
Beyond the shell I live in?

Or do you just condemn me?
By the first glance.
Judge me?
Slot me into a category?
Into a judgmental group?
Which one will it be this time?

Freak?
Loner?
Loser?
Geek?
Emo?
All are things that I've been called before.

Do you care about who I am?
About what kind of person I may be?
No.
You take one glance and that's all you need.
To slot me into a group.
To abandon any other impressions I may make on you to the judgements of one word.